Really, I can't hardly wait

This isn't the reason my id is "can't hardly wait" but now it fits.
I just found out yesterday that my attorney is recommending I wait until October to petition the court to grant my divorce over the objections of the husband. I hate typing it. I hate still being married to him.
I acknowledge that I'm involved in why things went bad. I didn't pull my weight in the right places. I let things go so far that there was no way to bring them back once I realized they'd gone too far. I take responsibility, I do.
But I thought I was going to be able to be done this August. I determined the pennance of two years was good for me. It forced me to refrain from any too-sudden movements (I like to be impulsive) and forced me to really reflect on what happened, where I went wrong, what I really want from a partner, and what I really want from a life. Sometimes I'm truly surprised at who I am. I mean, I like her, she's just not exactly who I thought she would be.
All this is good, right? But I still was so looking forward to being done with the whole process.
I know nobody wants to hear about divorce. It's painful and messy and weird and brings up all sorts of possibilities nobody likes to think about. So I'll shut up. After I whine one more time: I can't hardly wait.