Tied to the 90's

I finally read Generation X a couple months back. I'm going through a period of complete confusion and lack of direction and I thought maybe it would provide some insight. It didn't.

See, I'm feeling incredibly disconnected and lost and I have no idea what to do about it. All of a sudden, nothing is comfortable. It's like Alice In Wonderland but without the drugs. I've been working hard to try and figure out what's going on, what I need, where I'm going but so far nothing has worked. At this point, I'm just walking around stunned by everything I see or do. One minute the room is getting smaller and the next I'm participating in bizarre tea parties.

I've had periods of transition before where all of a sudden everything is different: friends start changing, I start new hobbies, get a new job, even the air smells different. Eventually everything sorts itself out and life goes on in its new direction. What's different is that in these transition periods the changes always happened TO me. This time, I think the changes need to happen BY me but I'm just not sure what change I need to make in order to regain my balance.

I've thought about new hobbies - photography, Roller Derby, blogging. I've thought about leaving the country. I've thought about getting a new job. I've thought about getting an MBA. I just haven't been able to figure out what the fuck I'm supposed to do. I'm looking for divine guidance but Buddah and Jesus have not been real helpful.

Bottom line is something's going on that's not quite right. Great, now all I can think about is the REM song "Strange". Clearly I will not be solving my problems this evening.